8 th Notes in progress - December 29 2024
Lessons: Don't follow convenience. Don't follow comfort. Follow what seems hard. Go towards the fear.
What I could improve: I spent too much time in unreflective, comfortable state. I am becoming too accustomed to comfort, which is against my values. Seek discomfort.
What are your values?
- Self-reliance
- Effort
- Agency
- Kindness
- Compassion
- Integrity
- Humility
- Caring
Try hard and care. I am scared of caring. I am scared of trying hard. Why? Easier to fall into distractions - movies, social events, grades, status, video games, sports, restaurants, hobbies, series, news, politics...
There is no time. You don't even know how much time you have left. That is also a scary thought.
Urgency of life. Time is now.
I am scared that growth comes trough pain. Is it true? Is it necessary to go through pain to grow? From experience, and from reading Aaron Schwartz, and some videos of Jensen Huang's talks, it seems true. Accept this truth.
Face the abyss. It's not comfort you seek. Don't follow what you want. You (me) are a limited, lazy, scared, unreflective, mediocre child. You must mature, you must grow. You must adopt responsibility. You are responsible for yourself. Never complain, always take responsibility for your acts.
Where to go? Don't follow your whim ( Mediterranean lifestyle in Spain) . Don't follow your ego ( prestigious university). Follow meaningful action rooted in values ( help decrease suffering).
What is a life well lived?
What can you assume?
- I'm very small as an individual, insignificant.
- Anonymous.
- No one cares
- I'm average.
- I can improve
- I can learn
- Your time on Earth is limited. Find something larger to which you can contribute. There is more than satisfying your desires. What?
How to get stuff done:
- Produce, don't consume.
- FOCUS.
- small, consistent effort everyday.