19th notes in progress - choosing places to live pt2
I´ve been to London, the city, a few times, only a few days each time - at most 2- and I don´t get the feeling: " I will be here". I don´t get that with any city. I prefer smaller towns - especially college towns. I would love to live in a liberal arts school. Be a teacher, give sociology classes, read in the afternoon, do some gardening... I would like to have a house nearby. Help kids get into good universities? Weird. I don´t think that should be the primary goal. Then what should be the primary goal? To awake curiosity. Class is only for 2 hours ¡a week! Out of 168 hours. It really won´t matter what exactly is lectured specifically. What matters how you make students feel, whether you can activate their curiosity, activate their motivation and discipline system. What to do ? I am tired of looking at the next destination. Stay where you are. Try where you are. Credentials do not matter that much. I don´t know. I thought I wanted to be in a startup. But I am weaker than I thought. I cannot keep up. I don´t want to just check out after 6 pm when my shift is over. What can I do? How do I care? Can I engineer? How do I raise my level of conscientiousness, ha, even spelling the word requires conscientiousness. Ok. but I am no writer. The world does not need more words. The world required more kindness. And patience? Don´t think so. More energy. Directed at the right place? How to direct at the right place? Is business the right place? Are startups? Is Parliament? Is academia? I think it´s startups.