17th notes in progress
Notes in journey of progress. Towards what? Don´t you need an end goal? It´s not a position, not a number, not a static thing. It´s progress, growth: intrinsic movement. But you need an external indicator of progress a measure, a KPI, not as an en in itself, but as a measure to check how I am progressing. These can be numbers, or position, but they are not in my control. I feel a little bit down, not sure. It could be the rejection of a whatsapp message, it could be that I am not sleeping well, it could be some kind of guilt. I am not sure. I see I am a hypocrite. And also, what is the probability that what I am happen to care about really is what everyone else should care about: AI, animal welfare, existential risks... I can go around thinking to myself that I know what the important things are, and everyone else is just wasting time on trivial matters. But everyone else is probably thinking the exact thing. What right do I have to impose my priorities over others? Maybe money helps in that it´s a neutral measure of value. It´s how society allocates resources to what it really wants. But you should be able to differ from what society wants, to reflect, to think critically, and try to guide society towards new wants, that based on reflection, and critical thinking, are wiser, kinder. So don´t give in, but also don´t complain that people should do things differently. You have to do the work of proposing these normative changes, try to persude people. Don´t complain, start with yourself. Now, whhere ought i to go? Classes, and then work at night. On what? Keep looking.