15th notes in progress
commit to something. It does not matter that much to what. Just commit. In my case, I have already commmitted: economics. Keep experimenting, keep exploring, but have a core. No films, no video, no video games, no music. Math, Muscle, Meditation. No more. Focus. Can you be top? I think I can be decent at agricultural economics. Ok. I like the countryside. Not spectacle, but domestic serenity: cooking, reading, conversing, gardening, cleaning. Anyhow, anyhow. This is still not my voice. I will keep writing until I can fetch out some voice that approaches what I want to get out. For that, keep writing! No matter, the day, the hour. Keep writing. I am acquiring a boring, stable adult outlook. I seek stability. No more exploration. I am now seeking to establish myself in a house. For forty years. And write, and read, and tinker. I hope I can be a leader. Mostly, I want to team up with a partner, and help each other in our careers, and build a family, and share these stages of our shared life: first job, choosing a house, repairing a house, gardening, painting. If this is what I seek, where does it come from? Modest dreams? Oxymoron? Do these concepts help me better express what I want to get out? Simple direct words suffice. Direct speech is enough. No more ruminating. I will try to get poetry. But keep in mind that you are another individual, not an intellectual, a guy, a guy, with a working mind. These dwellings, I should remove, are a little bit cringey? Fogey ,foget, fogus. Gofet, foget. Short. Only have time for one thing. What is that? What you do today: classes, a house. Study how to use AI, to automate repetitve tasks. For neutrality. Not supply chain. Something in food resilience. And supply chain. And agricultural economics. First, finish UC Chile. Embody agency: can it be better? start MA in agricultural economics now. Get a job now.